In the previous post comment Joanna asks me, “How are you liking/loving the same place? Maybe you’re there for a reason, you’ll have to let us know…” It is a life truism: You ask someone something one day and and the answer would be completely different on another day..or even later on the same day.
I am questioning the continuation of this blog. When I spoke with my sister on the phone yesterday and told her I was writing for today’s hump day post (every other week) she seem startled. “What?! Why are you still doing that when you’re not traveling anywhere?” I said, “For writing practice.” I thought, “I travel in my mind — all the time.” … I’ll ruminate on the matter.
Back to Jo’s question: Returning to the same house in Cambria, it was easy to be smitten once again with its natural beauty.
Balcony view
Fiscalini Preserve
Ocean blue
Across the street are miles of trails. From my balcony, I see whales spout during the day and a gazillion stars twinkle at night. Good neighbors, good townspeople. Yet as I unpack, nothing “fits” the same. Granted, there’s isn’t as much to fit. After the fires and mudslide, I sold and donated most everything. Except for the leopard love seat, I kept that.
I’ve been hitting thrift stores for necessities — dishes, a desk, a table, one chair, two bar stools, oh, and a piano bench from a curb! (I spent the last year traveling out of a suitcase the size of an extra large backpack — Less is More.) I’ve got Music. Books. Artwork. Sentimental stuff. And yet..?
I’m sleeping on an air mattress. A “real” bed was supposed to arrive today. Not happening for awhile. For consolation, I alter perspective: I am “sleeping on air” rather than a blow-up bed!
In my journals and in posts of the last year, I often remind self to give a place its Time. A Place, like many things, reveals itself slowly…
So Joanna, in this moment, my answer is, “I can’t answer you…yet.”
“Look for the bare necessities
The simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities
Old Mother Nature’s recipes
That brings the bare necessities of life.” – Terry Gilkyson (Jungle Book)
We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time.
E.S. Elliot
Macker! Great to hear from you, thank you. Your perfectly placed quote — a keeper and one to ponder. peace
I understand you are not traveling for now – but I for one would dearly miss your posts/life insights.
I also understand they take time to write – hell, an email out to a customer takes me much longer than it use to…(why is that…?)
Sounds like you are trying to put a round peg into a square hole…(I think that is how it goes…) – surrender to the universe and let the answers come…what needs to go, will go and what needs to come into your life will come…at least you have beauty and nature surrounding you while you ponder your life journey.
You are confined only by the walls you build yourself…
Peace and much Love Heidi!
“We leave something of ourselves behind when we leave a place, we stay there, even though we go away. And there are things in us that we can find again only by going back there.” your Cousis
Hey Cousis! Insightful and appreciated, as per you. I look forward to “conversating” about this in person…xox
“Unfortunately, we can never truly know if we’re making the right decision. What we do know is that wherever we are, that’s where the Light wants us to be. It’s the best place for us to be now. And as long as we don’t try to control the situation, then we won’t end up in the place we shouldn’t be.” (quote from Yehuda Berg). Love you Cousis!
Oh my gods, CJ! I love this quote. I’m going to look up the author…THANK YOU.