I don’t have to tell you. These are Tricky Times. It can be overwhelming.
Some days I want to say, “What the f..k?!”
(Slap my wrist, I’m trying to mitigate the swearing…”What the fubar*?!”)
Sometimes, this social deprivation business makes a face in my mirror and whines, “I want to burn the masks and see smiling faces again. I wanna dance to live music. I whine-a go somewhere……” Waa. Waa. Waa. All selfish statements of finding, “what’s wrong with the day.”
I’ve never been fond of New Year’s resolutions and this is not one of those. But I’m initiating a spanking new dialogue of self-help-talk. If I find myself straying to thoughts about what I’m missing or what’s wrong in the world, I’ll send in a mental pinch-hitter to say, “What is RIGHT with this day?!”
Today at the library, a book is on hold waiting for me. Outside my window, a pretty yellow bird flits amid red poinsettia blossoms. A little girl in green galoshes waved at me as I passed by; I’m still smiling inside.
I’m alive.
I live in peace (relatively).
I have food, water, shelter.
I have friends and family to love.
That’s it …
oh, what the fubar…!..I’ll throw in my New Year’s Eve video-dance (I feel the need to preface that this was created BEFORE I poured my first glass of champagne…)
Here we come, 2021!!!
“Live life like you’re gonna die
Because you’re gonna
Now, maybe you won’t suffer maybe it’s quick
But you’ll have time to think
Why did I waste it?
Why didn’t I taste it?”
– William Shatner
“It’s been a long
A long time coming
But I know a change gonna come
Oh, yes it will”
— Sam Cooke
*New Oxford American Dictionary – fubar/ adj. out of working order; seriously, perhaps irreparably, damaged. Origin 1940’s: acronym from fucked up beyond all recognition (or repair).
Oh my God – my FAVORITE Bee Gees Song…I play it every morning to get my groove on…!!
I hear you on the Fubar…I think of you often and how the traveling queen (you) has had to manage to stay put and how is she keeping sane…
Happy 2021!! Usually I feel different – excited, motivated, inspired going into a new year…but this New Years just feels stagnant…it is just 2020, just longer…
I am trying to read and appreciate Eckhart Tolle who says “When you make the present moment the focal point of your life instead of the past and future, your ability to enjoy what you do -and with it, the quality of your life- increases dramatically.”
Problem is – my attention span is about 5 seconds before wandering into future of when….when will all this be over, when will we be united again, etc.
I am extremely happy and excited for the Browns beating the Steelers and off to play the KC Chiefs next Sunday – it took 18 years to get to the playoffs, but I never gave up hope…I guess hope is a good thing. Let’s be hopeful for this year to turn around to where we can smile, hug and enjoy one another’s company again…
Peace and Love to you Heidi….LOVED my ornament!
JOANNA!!! I thought I lost you as my only reader. I used to receive notification with comments? It’s a new format and I haven’t taken the timer to figure it out. I just saw this one today. Thank you, sister. It’s getting to where I write the posts to read your comments.
Oh Miz Heidi!!! I’m finally getting back to your blog as it just got off my radar but LOVE this and your fabulous NYE dance video especially With you of course “bringing back the FUN in 2021!!! Please don’t stop asas I so enjoy your posts but I don’t always Leave a comment, however, I will make a greater effort to do so. I have barely been inspired of late but here and there it happens and often it requires me showing up in the studio but these times we are in I spend a great deal more time reflecting on life. Sending you some Big Love too! MIss You but this blog makes it all better…..Julie
Jules! Thanks for your comment and encouragement. Wonderful conversation and laughter the other evening, sister! Perhaps floating amid your reflections, you’ll find sweet inspirations.